Scrappy disjointed notes-to-self on faith and certainty:

How are other people going to bring us closer to God? At the least, we can hope on the possibility of the existence of parallel lifespans of spaces in time. We are drawn to any and all devices of tangible reassurance as analytical and naturally questioning beings, but investing our love in an inanimate or intangible thing free of the assistance or involvement of another person is the most balancing and life-giving human relationship. No human is capable of infallible eternal perfection or extending and expressing enough constant grace to pardon the innate human tendencies that clash against our cultural expectations. An everlasting, beneficial, healthy union between two people to me seems like a scam.
What we truly yearn for isn’t company or vice. Yearning is a symptom of malpractice of our personal principle values through laziness, or weakness and temptation. Spiritual development becomes a possibility when one’s principle values are identified and actively, regularly worked towards.
True happiness is inner peace.
i.e.
Practise mindfulness/clarity
Practise dignity/respect
Practise certainty alongside faith
Practise strength
Practise compassion
Practise honesty and expression